I sit kind of sad and melancholy today without the Women of Kaluna on site. See we are in transition, and that means that our ladies are not all here 100% of the time as of yet. Yes, sad! It is amazing how wonderful and healing it has been to be with authentic nurturing women who allow us men to be ourselves while supporting our needs for intimacy, love, and help in caring our life’s daily task. We make a wonderful team!
So for the past few days I have been missing Meghan as she has been moving the last of her material positions down from the Asheville area. I have sat in my loneliness, and felt the desires rise for self-gratification from the same old bag of addictions I have carried around for years. And I have made better choices than I would have in the past. Thanks to myself for doing the tough work of inner-reflection and soul searching. And now I give thanks to Meghan for giving me this space to feel my loneliness and the fear, sadness, and anger that it has risen in me. I connect to a need for emotional nurturance and intimacy that was lost at a young age. And I see now how healthy it is to be in a loving relationship where I receive daily kind-hearted love and care from Meghan. And in missing it, I see how when I was missing it as a child I developed ways to fill that hole with other things that made me feel good. And that progressed in adulthood to look like some self-abuses behaviors that brought me temporary relief from living in a society where people do not nurture and love one another on a daily basis. Instead, we found ways to hide our hurt and pain together, slinking further into the shadows of a culture devoid of spiritual connection and natural awareness.
I realize that happiness is directly related to the love I have for myself and my creator. By giving thanks to Creator for the “good” and “bad” in life I can move ahead with greater acceptance of myself and others. And I recognize a primal need to be in relationship with a loving partner and to share this in a loving community. And we are experiencing this together at Kaluna. So I want to thank the women of Kaluna for supporting me to be a whole person. For allowing me to cry in your arms and release the hurt from the past. I want to thank you all for seeing me for all of my parts, not just the pretty ones you meet at first. Thanks for continuing to love me!
Thanks to Liz for loving your life first! You shine it out to the world to see. I love your zest for self-care and nurturance. I look forward to supporting your efforts to open a body/mind/soul work space here at Kaluna!
Thank you Nancy for telling your stories and being you! I need your laughter and jokes in my life. They remind me to not take myself too serious. And the stories you so lively share with us shall be passed on to the generations to come!
And big Gratitude to you Meghan Cole for being authentic and willing to step into your wholeness by accepting my love. Thanks for all the time you have spent preparing your personal garden beds to accept the seeds of a soulful lover. I am continually awed by your calm and radiant presence. You are an inspiration to me every day! And I love the kitchen and farm magic we share!
It is our mission to support women to become integral members of our community. We are empowering the true decision makers, like the Clan Mothers of old who choose and removed the chiefs of the tribes. Please remind us men to continue to support more and lead less! And help us keep this conversation and action alive and always relevant.
Biggest love and support to the Women of Kaluna!